Blessings and Dreams

As I have been praying, pondering and playing over the past week I have realized two things.

First of all, I am SO VERY BLESSED!! I have a large group of amazing people surrounding me. People to play with, pray with, lean on, and talk with. I have a fellowship of solid believers, people that challenge me to grow my relationship with the Lord, people that encourage me in the hard times and lift me up.

Secondly, I know what I would do if I could do anything in the world--I would get a part time job that pays the sames as a full time job. This way I could support myself and have plenty of time to create fellowship, hospitality and community happen. How do I do this?!

No, I do NOT have a job!

Around close of business a couple Thursdays ago got an email:

We have had your CV returned to us from our Stakeholders with a recommendation for us not to employ you on the grounds of experience and qualification.

It is with regret that Al Shaheen LLC is withdrawing your preliminary offer of employment.

OUCH!! Mom, Dad and I sat in the living room and cried for a bit. What do I even say to that?! I had signed an acceptance of the job offer, but the job still didn't work out. The reason is complicated and ridiculous. I have spent the week and a half since doing a lot of thinking. 

Maybe it is time to go back to school. Maybe God will provide better. I have one friend who keeps saying it is because something bigger and better is coming. To this I said, "Maybe I'll get to train elephants!" At this point anything is possible. 

I am researching schools and possible things to study at those schools. I am applying for jobs all over the place. I am asking myself, "If I could do ANYTHING in the world right now what would it be?"